oh yeah i forgot


there was a thing on national geographic about 'superhumans' - autistic savants, etc. and you know one of the things they listed as a 'superhuman' power? the woman who could 'so incredibly' taste and see music. they're doing testing on her and they're like OMG SHE'S ONE OF THE 113 SYNAESTHETICS IN THE WORLD.


it pisses me off that they didn't say 113 RECORDED AND STUDIED synaesthetics, because there are obviously so many more, but it was soooo cool that they raved about it like it was a superpower.

and i've been asking people since 1st grade whether the number 8 or the emotion of sadness has physical qualities in an alternate dimension - color, texture, etc.


i have superpowers. hahahahahhaa.

i always wait like a year between posts.


this is out of sheer boredom and cleanup mode.


i found this shit ScarGuard MD at CVS for like $30 and it works like crazy awesome. so for anyone who has crazy bitch scars on their arms like i do, this shit is worth shelling out some cash for. it dries weird and flakes/peels like shit, and smells awful, but EVERY TIME i put it on, after 12 hours they're a little less noticable. considering i was gonna ask my mom for scar surgery for christmas, this is a nice break.


so um. anyone i only talk to on here (namely KAT UM HELLO).. i'm alive. and stuff.



and i'm learning russian again and have something resembling a normal family. strange.

STILL havent gotten my degree. doesn't seem to make a difference nowadays anyway.


-regina (the artist formerly known as regi)


btw we're all gonna die in wwiii cause it's gonna be nuclear

Tags: dima
Current Location: Todorovsky Doma
Inclination: ?
Artistry: Ruff Ryderz - World War III

i am back! sort of.




NEWS






went to rehab
no more dan
feeling really good. and clean.
got my 60 days of sobriety chip at aa today. it felt good.

i'm sorry to everyone i fucked over while i was all coked up and drunk. god i was useless.

still in love with her i guess




you know for someone who can't love, i certainly have issues getting over people

what did i do to hurt her? i don't understand.
i understand that she's too cool for me. but i don't understand what i did to hurt her.

y'know, this whole 'life' thing is actually starting to grow on me

Inclination: amused

i really, really, really, really wanna know where i come from





this is so stupid to say but i'm not sure i'll ever be able to watch futurama without my throat tightening
what spurred the thought was seeing that little bit in the episode where leela finds her parents - this little montage involving them just invisibly butting in throughout her life, where she thinks they're dead..


i stood up and changed the channel (thanks, lack of AA batteries for the remote) and tried to be strong and just crossed my arms... but then the tears started and i just kinda walked around a bit but then fell against my bedroom's doorframe and cried a bit. i only let out the ones i couldn't hold in. i have to be strong about it.

but the thought as i stared straight ahead still echoes so loudly in my brain. where are you guys?







this gaping hole is so much more painful and unique and lonely than any biologically-situated child can understand. so many facts and lack thereof and thoughts.





where are you guys?

Current Location: Worcester
Inclination: rejected

i wonder if obama is a freemason!

"what does that give you? ....an extraordinary nut snack"


and the dude really didn't pronounce the n


i can't remmeber who made the commercial because i'm pretty much on the flooor laughing

anyone in worcester looking for an apartment?...



i had no idea dan was able to be such a fucker

and now i'm totally screwed and need to find new roomies because he decided the apartment and rent should suddenly be my responsibility and that he wanted to move out.







FUCK

wtf.

as minh was persistently tipping over the trash can




it's like owning a ferret, quite exactly

jerry falwell is finally dead!!! :D


well, balance out.. carlin and falwell...


even so


in other news, things are rocky but weird and good and bad
the near future is definitely going to be interesting.



in other news


the nearly two-month-old kitten is in EVERYTHING and of course needs to assist me with every daily task, no matter how insignificant


welp

Current Location: Worcester
Inclination: creative
Artistry: Loreena McKennitt - Caravanserai

i am thrilled and i want to sob tears of joy and scream in exaltation atop a mountain

apparently i'm still stuck in high school??



anyway, emily (who i never talk to enough, btw, HI) had this kinda cool 'i'm bored' survey that i decided to do.

( sooo. )




i think the muse is waking up
it's also summer and i'm away from my parents



and there's SO much bad shit going on in my life but i don't really care. it's a different kind of bad - i have so much shit to take care of, but i have to chip away at it. not like OMG OVERWHELMING LIFE SUCKS..


maybe it's the medication? i'm confused as to how one tiny pill a day can change.. literally.. my universe.
heh



also i dunno why it's fair that women never get labeled perverts if they're creepyhorny. so many lecherous old (and young) men get these negative titles for REALLY liking pussy - but a girl that REALLY likes the cock is either just a plain old slut, or a gift from God.

why am i never called a perv? i mean of course i'm not complaining, i just don't think it's fair that the guy next to me who undresses people with his eyes the same way i do.. could be arrested for saying one word too much.


ich vermisse deutschland

Current Location: Worcester
Inclination: awake
Artistry: Dippa Satrang - Kaalja

found this guestcomic i did for a friend of mine's webcomic. hahah it's like 2 years old but i forgot how much i liked it.




maybe later on i'll post my paper... 'how the disposable razor changed everything...' but everyone's sick of boring anti-america crap.

Current Location: Worcester
Artistry: Smokey Joe's Cafe - Teach Me How To Shimmy

i want to try to think of time in a different way.



i also want to allow myself to create crap when i create.
an awesome idea was suggested to me that i have yet to try:


'sit down and say.. 'hey, i'm gonna make a piece of crap.' think of something crappy. then start drawing, writing, whatever. keep at it and eventually your muse will start getting annoyed.. nudge you and finally say 'hey, you're doing it wrong, lemme take care of it.' so you're like whoa, i was trying to create crap!... and if you DO create crap.. hey, you succeeded in your efforts.'


PERFECT for my mindset.




things are getting better, which is why i haven't posted, really


i only post when i'm the most upset or confused, usually. or when i have an insane realization, so... i dunno, i just bet if you met 98% of LJers in real life they'd be hardly whiny at all.


...okay more like 58% but whateverrrrrr

bored at 5 am leads to me stealing things from people

a weird.... ponderfart...

(i have a strange ability: being aware that my suspicions might be totally bogus)




what if plants and machines and stuff have some kind of consciousness?


i can totally see, if the human race survives, plant rights advocates groups. because there's definitely some communication that just isn't the type we use.








maybe in the afterlife we have a choice to relive a life at some really cool point in life if we've earned it. maybe this is just an awesome time in human history and i did something awesome in past lives, or maybe just had the choice, like in Our Town... iono






la la la la la

i don't want anyone to cry

why do i keep getting drawn to these losers?

nope!